My 24th birthday.

I understand now.

It wasn't just your life going backwards. It was mine too. And you didn't know what to do anymore. It frustrated you. I understand now.

I let myself go, wallowed in the bad things that happened to me. Cried in self pity and didn't pick myself up. That was a grave mistake.

What I did only led to me losing the important things, opportunities and people around me. I was a joke. To everyone, to myself. I should have never went there.

I understand now that to achieve my one true goal in life; to be happy, is not impossible. I had only one thing stopping me, myself. I will not let that happen anymore.

Let my 24th birthday signify this; rebirth and regrowth.

Absorb the good, throw away the bad. Pick myself up, come back stronger. It's okay if it is not perfect now. It is going to be hard, but I will do it anyway. Even if I am crying, I will still do it. Because in the end, it will be done.

Thank you for putting me back into my place. The strong woman who I once was and lost, should never go missing ever again. Things will be very different now. I will embrace this change.

Let go of the pain, but never forget, what is the meaning of my 24th birthday.


Love,
Elayne

100 Truths Challenge - 10 years later

Hey all, so I've decided to read my blog again to reminisce the good o'l days and I came across this 100 truths tag which I did when I was 14.

I've decided that I would like to attempt it again at 24, and see how much has changed!! 

Let's start -

@ 14 years old:

100 truths,tag 10 people to do the same. Don't forget to tag!

Last beverage ? Mil0! LoL

Last phone call ? Kai Qin ((:

Last text message ? Nutty nat ! haha

Last song you listened to ? Kau terlalu istimewaa :D

Last time you cried? forgott.

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice ? no ?

Been cheated on ? erm.

Kissed someone & regretted it ? nope. 

Lost someone special? yeahhh.

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:

Fallen out of love ? sometimes.

Laughed until you cried ? YEAA BABEYH ! XD

Met someone who changed your life ? hmm, dontknow. XD

Found out someone was talking about you ? yeaa -_____-

How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? ? all ? 

Do you have any pets ? yess ;D

Do you want to change your name ? nope, he likes it, i like it :DD

What time did you wake up today ? hahHA LaTE !

What were you doing at midnight last night ? gaming XD

Name something you cannot wait for ? exam to be over -____-

The last time you saw your father? just now.

What's one thing you wish you could change? NOTHING ;D

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ? hahha no.

What's getting on your nerves right now ? for now, nothing. XD

What's your name ? Elayne Leong Yee Ling :D

Elementary/Primary School? ermm, Sek. Seri Selangor, then, SK Hicom :D

Middle/Secondary School ? SMK USJ 8!

Hair color ? brownish black :D

Long or short ? long XD

Are you a health freak ? me ? healthy ? XD

Righty or lefty ? rightayyhhh ;D

FIRSTS :

First surgery ? never.

First piercing ? when i was in kidergarten HAHA.

First best friend ? Tiffany ? haha met her when i was 4 !

First sport you joined ? Figure skating ((:

First pet ? either dog, fish or toitise. haha, idk. XD

First vacation ? forgot. XD

CURRENTLY :

Eating ? nothing.

Drinking ? nothing

Waiting ? for him ! LOL

YOUR FUTURE :

Want kids? LOL, idk ;D

Want to get married? if he propose HAHA.

Careers in mind? dontknow. XD

HAVE YOU EVER :

Kissed a stranger ? stranger? nooo -____- 

Drank Wine/Beer/alcohol ? yeaa. XD

Lost glasses/contacts ? nope.

Ran away from home ? nope.

Broken someone's heart ? yea, im sorry ):

Been arrested ?nope.. imma good girl :D

Cried when someone died ? most obviously ):

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

Yourself ? yeaa.

Miracles ? haha maybe.

Love at first sight ? hmm.. (:

Heaven ? not sure XD

Kiss on the first date? LOLS.

Angels ? i wonder. XD

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

Is there one person you want to be with right now? YEAA!

Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? NO -_____-

Do you believe in God? hmm.. (:


@ 24 years old:

100 truths,tag 10 people to do the same. Don't forget to tag!

Last beverage ? Water

Last phone call ? Vonn

Last text message ? Terry

Last song you listened to ? Dancing On My Own - Calum Scott

Last time you cried? Just now

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice ? Nope

Been cheated on ? Yes

Kissed someone & regretted it ? Nope

Lost someone special? Yes

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:

Fallen out of love ? Nope

Laughed until you cried ? Yes

Met someone who changed your life ? Nope

Found out someone was talking about you ? Yes

How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? All

Do you have any pets ? Yes

Do you want to change your name ? No

What time did you wake up today ? 9:20am

What were you doing at midnight last night ? Playing Albion

Name something you cannot wait for ? Cannot wait to dye my hair

The last time you saw your father? Just now

What's one thing you wish you could change? Not wanting to die all the time

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ? Yes

What's getting on your nerves right now ? Annoyance

What's your name ? Elayne Leong Yee Ling

Elementary/Primary School? Seri Selangor & SK Hicom

Middle/Secondary School ? SMK USJ 8 & Sirius Scholar

Hair color ? Black

Long or short ? Long

Are you a health freak ? Not really, no

Righty or lefty ? Righty

FIRSTS :

First surgery ? 2016 - Appendicitis

First piercing ? When I was six, pierced my ear lobes

First best friend ? Tiffany, since 3 years old!

First sport you joined ? Ice Skating

First pet ? Mabel & Prince, the miniature pinscher 

First vacation ? Don't remember, sorry

CURRENTLY :

Eating ? Nope

Drinking ? Water

Waiting ? To sleep

YOUR FUTURE :

Want kids? Not sure

Want to get married? Not sure

Careers in mind? Not sure, but I just want to be happy

HAVE YOU EVER :

Kissed a stranger ? Yes

Drank Wine/Beer/alcohol ? Yes

Lost glasses/contacts ? Nope

Ran away from home ? Nope

Broken someone's heart ? Yes

Been arrested ? Nope

Cried when someone died ? Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

Yourself ? Nope

Miracles ? Maybe

Love at first sight ? Nah

Heaven ? Not sure

Kiss on the first date? Yes

Angels ? Maybe

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

Is there one person you want to be with right now? Myself

Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Nope

Do you believe in God? Creator maybe

_____________________________________________________________

Welp, nothing much has changed HAHAHA.

See ya around.
ELayne