Lost.

Why hate? when you start hating, a vision will be blocked. A vision of a good side.

It'll all be dark and gloomy, everything you see of it will be black and nothing more.

Stop hating, start loving, you will be able to see the good side of things and clear out the fog and clouds that you were once hiding under.

Dreams? Why does my dream seem sooo impossible.. ? Why did God let me meet a competition who is far better than me? Is it to show and tell me that i should give up because there are way more talented ppl out there in this world? Or is it to help me become better at it than i alrdy am? Honesly, i never really thought that my dream is something that I could ever achieve. I have NO belief in it.

Im not looking down on myself, it's because i KNOW that some things are just impossible, not EVERYTHING is possible no matter how hard you try to believe. Not only that, i also know that im not good enough and i will never be.

For the future, i don't really know what to do. i LOVE science but not as much as i love music. I love discovering new things too but there is not one thing that i know of that i REALLY REALLY LOVE doing. Why is it this way? i want to know what i love doing. and secondly, i want to know what im really talented in. Like what everybody says, everyone has a gift. What is mine? its frustrating that i have yet to discover it but if i alrdy have discovered it.. then i really am not talented enough for the talented.. if you get what i mean..